Anxiety.

Hey Beautiful Creatures, this post is a bit different to my usual happy and cheery post this post is actually quite deep, serious and emotional to me. So no one knows this except for my mum but I suffer from anxiety. Some of you may be thinking I am saying this and doing this for popularity because Zoella did it but thats not true, she did inspire me to do this post but I do honestly suffer from anxiety. I suffer when I have to go to my dads. My parents split when I was young and both my mum and dad have re married. Its confusing the relationship with my step mum (my dads new wife) but I have never really liked her and her daughter (my step sister). My step sister used to bully me a lot, physically and mentally but now I have learnt to deal with it and stick up for myself. Also my step mum sort of has these chats with me that makes me feel uncomfortable, I know its for my own good and everything but I get scared that one of those talks are going to happen again. I don't get panic attacks but I am going to dads this weekend and when I think about it I start breathing really fast and my heart starts beating faster. Like now. I don't know why I get scared and anxious about going, because 2/10 of those times they have those 'chats'. So today is about telling you my story and what I do to control it.

1. If your getting anxious about something just breath, relax. Push that thought to the back of your mind and think about the good things. I live a terrible way, in the week instead of looking forward to something good in the week, I pinpoint the bad thing and dread it.

2. Look forward to something. When I go to my dads I always look forward to something even if its just like seeing my mum or writing a blog post.

3. Play Music. I don't know about you but playing music and dancing around relaxes me, I go full out crazy and just forget about it.

4. Read a book. Get sucked into a really good book, kick away reality for a while and live in the book your reading. Live their life for a while.

5. Talk to someone. I know that I talk to my mum, but saying this to you guys makes me feel so much better, just letting it out relaxes me.

6. Think to yourself why your anxious. I honestly don't know why I get anxious about going and what Im scared of. Is it my step mum? Step Sister? But all I know is that I don't want to go.

7. Take a relaxing bath or just have a nap in bed. Forget about everything.

8. Think about the one good thing. There has to be one, I know for this weekend it is that they just got 2 new dogs and I can't wait to meet them.

9. Exercise. Going for a run playing your music in the fresh air is SOO relaxing and your not just de-stressing

So most of those things were about forgetting about everything. I have suffered from anxiety for about 7 months now since I found out a bit more about my step family and having those 'talks'. I know that when I get all anxious I start biting my nails and shaking my legs and just puffing. I know that anxiety is now really common but it makes me feel really good letting this out and telling you. When I get anxious I am like half anxious and half telling myself that there is nothing to worry about because there isn't really. If you would like feel free to tell me your anxiety stories if you suffer in the comments because trust me it feels really good to let it out and tell someone. I would love to hear your stories but again only if you are comfortable. It actually helps me relax and calm down talking about it. Thats all for now though so remember to tell me your stories and your tips and I will talk to you soon.

Love you all xx